fuh that’s how this all started for me, crazy kan. and the more crazy part is admin masih mengharungi depression ni and now it turn into anxiety. or i dont know admin tak pasti sama ada depression atau anxiety ni sama atau different atau this 2 things relate to each other. Apa yang admin faham the depression yang admin get through will trigger the anxiety and when this 2 combine the bomb will explode. Sangat menakutkan and the anxiety attack is also growing or mutating (thats how admin describe it haha) because the attack is coming through different phase of my life. the attack is moving along with my life for example recently i have sleep problem where i really cant sleep at night, and the anxiety successfully change into sleep attack. haha this is how i describe it, dont refer this to a doctor haha. But seriously what i mean is previously i never have this kind of anxiety attack esp when i Was laying down on my bed sleeping. Bila the attack datang i will suddenly woke up and find myself hard to breath, its like im choking and my heart beat is faster like i just sprint for 100m, im sweating and shivering and scared at the same time. WHAT is that? do you think thats fun?..no okey bayang kan admin to deal with that, lagi teruk kalau admin masa tu sorang sorang di rumah, just like that it will make it worst sebab who am i going to go for help?no one kan sebab admin alone.

Bukan itu saja, sometime tengah tengah admin scroll tiktok laughing at video that admin tengok and next scroll out of no where im shivering, feeling like choking or feeling something unussual with my body esp feeling something on my throat that make me hard to breath, walhal tiada apa apa pun…crazy kan how something that not real or not even there only your mind yang playing trick on you and end up you scared to death. ohh gosh i think i really need help haha…but offcuz how am i still surviving this?…when this happen focus on your mind this only in your head nothing going to happen, push that to your thought and ussualy it will follow me reading surah from al quran, rading ayat kursi or the 3 kul surah, it surely calm myself immidietlly, sometime shaytan and iblis also playing role on this, so like i said before no 2 strong your faith.

so basically itu lah anxiety yang admin lalui or i dont know this is what i have to deal sometime daily or sometime in a week it attack me once, admin not sure when exactly the attack coming. but ussually when my fear is trigger then it start to build up in my head and eventually it strike. so what do you guyz think? i think writing this post also one of the way to share your thought and ease your burden in the head. this is only my experience on handling my anxiety but if you think you still cant deal with your fear after doing the same thing i do here, i think dont hold yourself from getting help from the professional one, go to doctor get a medication if you have to. make an appointment for a theraphy or caunselling if you have to, because this can lead to mental health problem if you dont control it. save yourself from it and love yourself too. i really really hope this post somehow help you in a way or maybe i dont know ease something in your life, if you have anything that you want to share just find me from any social media that i have share in this post. Admin doakan semoga siapa siapa yang tengah mengharungi depression dan anxiety semoga kita semua berada dalam lindungan allah and insyallah everything will be just fine, so i will end this post here thanks for reading this and keep on fighting ya!!